Much has happened, and not much has happened since the 25th of November 2012 to today March 25th 2013. Nonetheless…
I’m glad to be back and in your service.
I’ve learned alot the past 5 months, a whole lot. i’ve strayed away from myself. i got caught in the web of “everything”, the everything that feels like nothing at the end of the day.
Everyday is starting to feel the same and i dont know if that is a good thing. Thoughts are becoming Negative for me, i’m not so in-tuned with my surrounding.
I no longer AM.
It’s funny how one sets out to do some kind of good for Humanity in his/ her small way, then all of a sudden it seems like you automatically become attractive to negativity.
The funny thing is, nothing Negative has actually happened to me, but my Mind, my Thoughts, my Perception, i find myself being much more Negative than i have been in a long time. This World will suck you in if you let it.
Don’t deviate from your Spiritual Path, whatever Faith or Belief you choose to follow, it is important to Love, and important to be compassionate.
The moment your Mind, Feelings and thoughts, go from ‘how to make My Environment and the strangers in it a better happier place’, to ‘i know the World has issues but i have my own to solve first’… is when it all comes crashing down on you…
and you become what you constantly push yourself NOT to be, you become the very thing that has motivated you and inspired you to be a Person of Love and of Higher Resonance, you become… Everyone else … and therefore, Just somebody else.
You fall into the Trap again, the Trap of “Service to Self”. Next thing you know your Days are wizzing by, you feel there is not enough time in the day to get things done, nothing ever gets done, you curse more than usual, you see everyone as an obstacle to your next destination instead of Human beings, you stress easily, you toss and turn at night unable to get a good nights rest, enough is never enough, you give less, and you happen to need more, your body aches, you slouch more, you breathe heavier, and you’re always fatigued, and it seems as if all this restlessness came from the Blue, as if it came from one day to the next…
I’m nervous about what my near future is to bring, when the “lag time” of the manifestation of my thoughts are created in a physical form, its going to happen, i have about a good 3 Months of being in a very lowered state of Frequency, very negative thought patterns. yes, you pay the price for your thoughts, well, the Consistent ones, the “Automatic” ones, keep an eye out for them and force yourself to respond with 2 positive thoughts about the situation you just internally negatively reacted to, its a good start.
I’m going to change this here and now. So that when these Loving, Compassionate, Understanding thoughts manifest themselves my Life will be restored to the beautiful thing it once was just a few Months ago.
Despite what you hear, Despite what you read about, look around, your life isn’t that bad, Smile. Be Grateful. The World is actually a Beautiful place. People are generally willing to help, even though we may not speak to eachother on the street, when we are in trouble, strangers are the first to help, remember this. Change your thought patterns and watch your Life slowly evolve to reflect these patterns.
If you need advice, i’m here to help.
(Excuse the Type-o’s)